Feels of Her Nights

“Thank you, Allah”, I showed gratitude as I rolled at my bed and saw my phone. To watch the time obviously. Thirty-three past four played the hands as I oscillated through his past chats, one more time. Well, that’s how my day began. I finished reading his last….. And there was a sudden rush of blood in my heart when ‘his’ name shined in my WhatsApp list of stories after a long while. I had no idea if he had deleted his whole WhatsApp account apart from just uninstalling the app, which he usually did. That means he deleted all our past chats, everything. Because deleting WhatsApp number erases the backup from the Google Drive as well.

But, I was glad I stopped myself from texting him in these 87 days. I did not even have to forget anything anymore. We did not hate each other. We loved. We truly loved. And I was happy to learn about his strength to finally erase a part of me from his life. He always talked about rights and wrongs. And that was very brave of him

One day he asked, “How hard it is to choose a wrong path over the right one?
“Less than a thought”, I goggled, as I explained that at the very least, we would learn which one was the right path though.

He looked me in the eye and said, “The hardest part about being on the wrong path is_ realisation. Because the farther you go, the more you have to walk back to the start. So, it’s all about realising, the earlier the better, if we are on the wrong path.

I turned off my ‘Read Receipts’ and opened it to read one of all his mesmerising writings, which were all centered around me, once upon a time. And it read_

“Main muhabbat ke us marhale meN jaa pahoNcha
Main agar kaafir hota toh sajda bhi kar deta”

“In that stage of love
I reached as a lover
If I were a dis-believer,
I would have prostrated to her”

And I thanked Allah again for making me fall in love with him and helping me learn that_
“The greatest form of Love for a soul is to prostrate the lover.”

But, this is what he always said_
“Allah is between us.” His last sentence to me. And that’s the greatest blessing one can wish for in a relationship. That’s how he always was. Sublime.

Yes, he is no more in my world.
No more my world.

~Saiz

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  1. Oh my God! This was sooo deeply emotional and touching. I love how you presented it from the girl’s perspective so perfectly. And that little poem just made me speechless, it was extremely beautiful!

    I don’t know if I’ve reached that level where I find myself capable of commenting on your masterpieces, but I’d still like to say, Great work, Sir! ๐Ÿ˜ฌ I appreciate and respect your work a lot and I’m happy to sse you back here. Keep writing.

    -Firefly ๐Ÿ

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    1. Ohhh Emmm Jeee
      How amazing it feels to embrace such a beautiful appreciation. You are a beautiful soul Firefly.
      I am trying to get back here again. I hope to see you around and watch your creativity once again. Have a nice time ahead. God bless.

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      1. Oh emm jii, oh emm jii, ohhh emmm jiiii. ๐Ÿ˜น You and your thoughts are more beautiful, Sir. Hehe, I have kept writing on a break abi. Comic designing is my current obsession. Hope you like my attempts. ๐Ÿ˜บ

        Yay, you have a good time too. I’ll be waiting to read more from you. ๐Ÿ™†

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  2. Your posts always give me the pause and this time it reminde me the moments when I became the redefined lover and the love is still Continous to flow like river. He is with us each and every moment.
    Vo shahrak se zada Kareeb h!!
    Bs mehsoos krne ki der h!!

    Keep writing keep shining ๐Ÿ™‚
    Didn’t read it carefully due to pre-occupied hectic Schedule . Will read it definitely with time. But I can grasp the beautiful concept.

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    1. And your comments are always too delicate to my writing venture. I am all smiles. However, you don’t have to read that with a lot of time at hand. And moreover, my words aren’t that deep either. I guess, grasping the concept is why we read anything.
      Have a nice time ahead. Allah Hafiz. Keep shining.

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